thank you for checking up on me =P yeah i'm fairly young. i feel a lot older now, physically, because of the stress. i removed my first post, and did ask that the mods remove it. i haven't gotten a chance to check but i guess they did. things happen that we can't control and whether or not it was my fault, i AM happier now that i've gotten away and am free and can just breathe. i appreciate your input and viewpoints though, i do. life is a crazy thing.